Gerard Butler is really great. I saw his interview on Empireonline.com, on the Ugly Truth, and he talks about the disillusionment of girls about guys and guys over girls... but then his closing remark, even though I couldn't make out what his exact last sentences were because-- maybe it was his accent or the way his pitch dropped, so maybe it's not exactly what he meant or even said in context... but he said there's parts much deeper and important in both genders that is there...
So then I searched Phantom of the Opera stuff, looking at interviews and all that, because that's when I first became a fan and knew about Butler... Gerard says he tried to turn people on and have a "sexy" Phantom, raunchy, yet though it may seem contradictory, he wanted to express some "primal sadness" in him too, and I think that's what's so beautiful about the character. Actually I looked on Youtube and there's a deleted scene! It's amazing. I hear its only been included on a recent Blu-ray format disc... well go watch it, before it's taken off or something. See the movie. It's great.
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Love the line, "in my dark my heart heard music".
Someone said whenever G.B would talk about the Phantom's loneliness, he would cry... : (

School has already started for me, for a couple weeks now. I appreciate my teachers but I guess this doesn't give me much relief as I find it difficult, like last year, to dig my feet in and get with the program... much internal resistance... gosh.

Reading some self-help kinda books, Dr. Phil, Teachings of Abraham, Seth books... etc. If not helping with high-stress areas, at least it's some interesting reading and different takes on personal reality...

Got some new clothes, I'd been wishing for skirts and got some! Very pretty.

I've been drawing a bit, and as there's been a long gap since I really DID something, I'm kinda surprised at how my "style" has changed somehow... tee hee.

The Last Gaurdian game is coming out, the last in trilogy after Shadow of the Colossus. Christopher Nolan is coming out with new movie starring DiCaprio. Tim Burton! I read Burton on Burton, which is a bunch of interviews with Burton on... like all his movies. It's a great read. J. Depp does forward-- twice. Funny. Wonderful. Liked it when Burton says that having a happy ending, to replace a percieved downbeat ending, was more "psychotic" than not... and how he doesn't really percieve his movies as in anyway downbeat or "dark"... he finds mixing things up normal. Annd... how he doesn't think in terms of light/dark, and he's not really making themes of it, he just doesn't think that way... they're not quite opposites to him. In his Batman movies his villains weren't "bad", and nor was Batman the "hero", they were all just interesting characters, and it was just Batman's personality to hide and be introverted and be in the dark...
How he thinks that masks, painting faces, somehow gives the person more freedom and looses them up so more of them shows (personality-wise). That's why he frequently paints faces, like in E Scissorhands. Well read the book to get your interpretation of him and read his answers, because obviously going through me is distorting things. New movie: Alice in Wonderland. Yay! Mad Hatter make-up and costume = perfection. Ann Hathaway = sublime, too.

Also reading book on Courtly Love of the Troubadours, y'know, medieval times code... bought at library $1, great pics. Also reading bout King Arthur, and the book has a foreword by the screenwriter of Monty Python and the Holy Grail. Righteous. Seeing all sorts of lovely pictures. Scotti (from Scotland) was the Roman's word for bandits...
Hmm. Book on Faeries by character designer of the Dark Crystal (sorry forgot his name), Really awesome pictures, wouldn't expect such different qualities... author really sees these energies and writes about them. Anyway, suspending disbelief, it is good food for thought and inspiration, just looking at beautiful pictures... the book is divided into Good and Bad faeries, and you have to turn the book upside down and around to read the Bad section. Wonderful how this guy says that the faeries themselves would laugh at you if you labeled them good/bad, cuz they each have the elements within them...

Ponyo was fun to watch. Lisa looks so interesting sippin her tea. Trial of love: loving someone for who they are (really are). Answer: I'll love whether she's a goldfish, little girl, or something in-between.

Course, when you get back to personal issues all this open-mindedness, forgiving others and forgetting and looking at it through another perspective, so that you can allow and love again, is just too scary, difficult, tiresome and unwanted... well anyhow.

Good night. Didn't mean to write this much, but whatever. : )